So I've been doing Tarot readings for myself for the past 2 months, I often don't record them but I think maybe I should.. so here goes..

The Crow: The crow sees your immediate past, where you are now and your immediate future. Its wings show outside influences one that you know and one that you are not aware off but is present.

1: Me as I stand now -- 4 of coins - Advarice. Material sucesss tainted with greed.

2: My recent past (last few weeks) -- 14 Temperance - Balance. Harmony. A life with all the necessary inggredients in the right mix.

3: My immediate future -- King of Cups (inverted) - Someone who's talents are washed out by his/her emotional excesses. she/he could be great but dwells incessantly on her/his emotions.

4: What I know -- The Fool -- A radical new course in life.

5: What I don't know -- Nine of Cups (inverted) -- You could have all that you desire but may lose it by your own actions.

6: What (good) news is on its way. -- Seven of Coins -- A Fortunate finacial gain. A windfall. Money without work.

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Going into this reading I've become a little frustrated with my fincaial and romantic situation. Mainly that I can't afford to go out with people and drink or eat at restaunts as often as I would like and often have no food at home. Or that I can't afford to buy nice clothes. I have also been upset that I can't find a relationship beyond what I have with M*. Although I'm often conflicted that I have everything that I need and feel like it should be enough to satisfy me and for the last couple of weeks M* has been all I felt I needed.

I've known that I need a change in order to improve things. I've known that for awhile, but I can't' figure out what it might be. I've been working very hard on my art and at learning perspective so that I can use that to make money.

What the King of Cups, and the Nine of Cups seems to be worning me away from seeking emotional support, and from dwelling on my obessive need on finding a man to love me, ect ect. If I keep at what I am soppose to, perhaps I can actually achieve the freedom I want through my art.

Alternatly I could have the love I want, but by sucumbing to my emotional excesses I could loose it...

Lots to think about here.