Salty foods may in fact act as an antidepressant, the brain's way of rewarding us for staving off extinction. And just as with any addiction, the brain doesn't know when to turn it off -- the pleasure centers of your brain get accustomed to the high, demanding more and more. And, just to make things even worse, salt may actually contribute to changing our brain chemistry, so that instead of feeling full after eating, we just keep craving more. Combining it with fat and other elements in junk food is actually thought to be about as addictive as heroin.

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Labour Day Weekend!

yowza what a weekend!!! I have no idea who all reads this, so I'm going to keep some of the details to myself. However there was lots of touching, hand holding and affection that I haven't recived in quite a long time! It was soothing to sleep beside someone again. Too cook a meal and be able to share it with someone. Although I have no idea what will happen with this, instead of obessing about it, I am going to enjoy the weekend for what it was. Fantastic.

Three things that amused me the most was getting another frog for the frog tank. Gumpter now having a friend. I get a female energy from it so I've decided to name her Shebba. She's quite a bit bigger then Gumpter and likes to surprise nudge him. Also I got a light hooked up in the frog tank. I was worried it would be too bright but they really seem to love it.

I can see now why the stuff I read on them says that they like real plants. They crawl amungst the leaves with thier little frog faces turned up towards the light..sitting partly exposed and sunning themselves. Swimming between the stalks and really seeming quite happy.

I saw a really amazeing tank set up at the pet store too. It looked like a river bottom, with long flowy grass plants, and a tree bark style background. There were even bits of twigs/dead leaves floating on the top of the water. I think I'm going to do that with Gumpter and Seba's tank. Maybe adding a few more small rocks and a skull for good mesure though.

Lets see.. what else...what else..

oh yes! Second thing.. I was at Logan's on Sunday for the Hootanany as usual, and I was wearing my red and black hippy sundress. I got a lot of ooow's and awww's and Kim a woman I quite like who i've hung out with a few times grabed my hands during a livily band and I danced!! I never ever dance at a hoot becouse it's not really a danceing area. But there I am being spun around and kicking out my feet and laughing my fool head off between tables. An the few people we almost run into laugh at us and where really supportive.

After I sat back down I noticed a long haired man come into the bar..and of course I always check out long haired guys, and this one was really cute in his behemoth t-shirt and facial percings. I gave him a bit of a come hither look and ...he actually came over and asked to sit with me! We chatted and he kept looking at my hair..then my boobs..then hair..then boobs with this amazed look...I'm really sure my hair was frizzed out all crazy from being swung around danceing and..earlier in the day.

Richard kept trying to get me to stay and drink later with him, and he probably wanted to..do more then that. But I told him no and came home..couse having just crawld out of bed with someone else..it's a little skanky to go party with another man 3 hours later. I did give my email address to him and told him I would go out sometime this week with him instead.

Also I'm still mulling over how to make money without going to work for an office or somewere that stresses me out big time. IE how to make more cash and do more things I enjoy. I was walking past the compassionate care store, and I thought..I have a love of plants, I have a huge light filled balcony..a love of the herb. Maybe I should look at growing it.. legally. I've conciderd growing a plant before and learning what to do with it, but always that fear of working outside of the law has stoped me. I don't want that phobia around the cornor. But If I got my licence to do it? I think I might really enjoy it!

Also I think I might get my busker licence and find a few events to go to, and do quick pencil portraits of people. Everyone got a real kick out of it when I was in NS, and I really likie doing it.

Both these options don't require my having a lot of start up cash, or getting an education.. The pot plants I think I might go into compassionate care and see if I can apprentice part time with someone..so I can learn what all is involved with weed growing.

This has been a hard week, and yet so far strangely invigorating. It's the fist time I have not taken any medications herbal or otherwise for depression. I'm manageing it on my own..although it's a tad harder as random memories of shame pop into my head..and sometimes they catch me off gaurd and I stop and think about them rather then let them go. But I'm improving ..i'm accepting that I can't change these horrible things I feel like I've done.

I can't change the past, but I can not do it again.

On another note I finally started to paint the fang earrings I bought ages ago. They were white and shiny and didn't really look like tusks..even though the shape was right. So I dug out my shark tooth and useing that as a color guide i've been painting.. I think they look really cool now. They are still thin enough to allow a bit of light to make them glow, but the lines and cracks and yellowy color makes them look really fantastic.

I got to thinking wouldn't it be fantastic if there was a line of Barbarian like jewlery that wasn't so over the top fake looking that it could only be worn on haloween? it's enough to make me concider getting some clay ..I want a small bird skull on a long chain,, with maybe some runic trinkets around it.