This has been a hard week, and yet so far strangely invigorating. It's the fist time I have not taken any medications herbal or otherwise for depression. I'm manageing it on my own..although it's a tad harder as random memories of shame pop into my head..and sometimes they catch me off gaurd and I stop and think about them rather then let them go. But I'm improving ..i'm accepting that I can't change these horrible things I feel like I've done.

I can't change the past, but I can not do it again.

On another note I finally started to paint the fang earrings I bought ages ago. They were white and shiny and didn't really look like tusks..even though the shape was right. So I dug out my shark tooth and useing that as a color guide i've been painting.. I think they look really cool now. They are still thin enough to allow a bit of light to make them glow, but the lines and cracks and yellowy color makes them look really fantastic.

I got to thinking wouldn't it be fantastic if there was a line of Barbarian like jewlery that wasn't so over the top fake looking that it could only be worn on haloween? it's enough to make me concider getting some clay ..I want a small bird skull on a long chain,, with maybe some runic trinkets around it.